Overexposure

Love is more than a word.

It’s comfortability, trust, and respect. It’s nothing to be thrown around or played with.

It’s something that makes your stomach go into knots when your eyes fall on the smile of your partner standing in front of you.

It’s a feeling that can truly only be felt once in your lifetime.

It’s something that motivates you to wake up every morning knowing that they will be right there by your side.

It’s something that cannot be completely explained through words.

It's everything that I've always wanted.


I don't think you realize how much you mean to me.
I don't think I could love anyone more than I do you.
You mean the complete world to me.

I love you to the moon, the stars, the galazy
and back.

This is my overexposure to you, darling.
I hope you think of me tonight.

Angel

This can’t be true, this can’t be real,
The way that you treat me, the way you make me feel

Every time I see you,
Every time I see your face,
Every way that you hold me,
My heart aches for your embrace

You broke through the barriers,
You broke through my walls,
You broke through to me,
To my surprised, I’m appalled

You make me feel like I’m something,
Like I’m something worth while,
The love set between us,
Could go on for miles

Waking up next to you,
Is nothing short than amazing,
Waking up to your smile,
Only makes my heart sing

We’ve had our rough times,
The fights and the trials,
But believe me when I said this,
I want to stay for awhile

The love that you give me,
Makes me feel brand new,
Like the flowers in spring time,
Like the beautiful morning dew

The feelings I feel,
When laying next to you,
The feelings I feel,
Make me shudder still too

You are definitely not human,
Yet you still live and breathe,
This has never happened to me,
My heart lies on my sleeve

Stupid cliches,
Have never seemed so true,
These cliches, though, empower me,
Your happiness I must ensue

Your smile makes the butterflies in my stomach go wild,
You make me smile and giddy like a child

Your body next to mine,
When we fall asleep at night,
You keep me close to you,
You press me against you real tight

You are nothing less than perfect,
As perfect as perfect can get,
You had me at hello,
Even the first day we met

These strange new feelings,
Thrashing around in my chest,
Though the past is the past,
And the present is best

You make me feel special,
Like I’m something to be,
You make me feel wanted,
You make me want a new me

Forever is a long time,
And without being blunt,
I’d like to to keep you for that time,
You’re all I could ever want

I always dreamed of this day,
The day I met my prince charming,
Now that it’s finally here,
The feeling is alarming

I’ve said this before,
Our love is like Twilight,
So strong,
So bright

You've been send to me, baby,
My prayers have been met,
You’re my one and only one,
For this, I can bet


From your sweet serene voice,
To the soft touch of you skin,
To the warm smile on your face,
From the day you let me in

Your careful brown eyes,
Your warm touch is a must,
You’re something more to me,
Much more than just lust

And so I spill my heart out,
In this poem of love,
You’re my angel, baby,
My sweet gift from above

December 2009

Agreement

I should’ve listened, I shouldn’t have gone,
I shouldn’t have stayed until the crack of dawn
I shouldn’t have listened to your black hollow lies
I shouldn’t have fallen into your fake disguise

You’ve turned me into something,
Something I should’ve never became,
You've turned me into something,
Something completely insane

Your markings stay true,
Through the sorrow and fights,
You haunt me in my dreams,
Every single fucking night

I never should’ve wasted,
My breathe or my time,
I never should’ve listened to you,
Lying throughout every line

The contract was signed,
Name, date, and a hint,
I knew I should have,
I should have read the fine print

You’ve scarred me forever,
And nothing can change me,
I’m sitting here waiting,
For you to agree

December 2009

I'm Sorry

For all the fucked up shit I’ve done
For all the lies, and all the fights
For all those nights we fell asleep angry
For all the money I’ve spent
For all the hangups, and all the ignored calls
For all those times that I was late for anything
For all the cursing, and all of the swearing
For all the deceit, and all the disappointment

I wanted to let you know,
Just before I let you go,
I’ve been wanting to tell you,
I’ve been waiting to say,
I’ll always be your number one fan

I know this is stupid,
I know this sounds dumb,
But when I’m with you,
Everything goes numb.
From my head to my toes,
From here to the moon,
I can promise you this,
I’ll be seeing you soon.

So here I am,
Standing up to your face,
Just letting you know,
You’re my amazing grace.

For all the mental abuse
For all the sleepless nights
For all the disagreements
For all the badgering
For all the hurt, and all the pain
For all the insanity between us
For all back talk
For all the hitting

I wanted to let you know,
Just before I let you go,
I’ve been wanting to tell you,
I’ve been waiting to say
I’m sorry

October 2009

Drop Fucking Dead

Here we go
Here we go
AGAIN

Failure, failure
Screamitlouder
FAILURE

Glad you’re satisfied with yourself
Doesn’t look like you’re got it
AT ALL

Watch her fall
Watch her die
It’s hilarious

Keep laughing
Keep fucking laughing
Keep lying
Keep fucking lying
Ithelps, ithelps

Fakefakefake
Real fucking cool

Tell all your friends,
It’s the new scene

You’re just using empty words and promises,
Just stop now

You get what you deserve
Spill your guts darling
Let your heart break for me

Go ahead
GO RIGHT AHEAD
Break her

Pack your bags
You’re done
You’re gone, sweetie

You’re wasting your time
DROP FUCKING DEAD

November 2006

Finally Free

Once again, she’s lost within herself
And again, she doesn’t know what the fuck to do
People say to go die, should she take their suggestion?
She thinks she should, but then again, she doesn’t know what to do
She blasts her beautiful music to block out the pain and torture her ears consume every single fucking day
She just doesn’t understand why people care so much
She’s on the floor crying hysterically
She’s falling lower and lower as her fairly short life goes on
Why is she even here?
Can anyone answer that?
She’s out of control at this point and no one, no one gets it
Is there anyone out there that can heal and mend all the pain and hurt that she’s gone through for the past fourteen fucking years of her life?
How long until she’ll be okay?
Will she ever be?
So many questions, and she gets no answers whatsoever
Will she ever?
Well, she loves him
But there’s no possible way to would ever work out
She also loves another
Everyone tells her that he really doesn’t feel the same about her as she does him
But she’s heard differently and she’s confused with love by now
She’ll have to get over it somehow, anyway, even if it kills her
It kills her to not be so free and careless like a normal person is
She’s so overwhelmed with hatred and confusion
She aches with pain
She can’t take the pain and torment for much longer
Maybe she’ll be loved one day
“Don’t expect anything to come” she whispers silently into this empty place of torture
She fakes a smile everyday
Will someone help her get out of this hell?
All she’s going is going in circles and she just can’t stop it
She goes through the days, trying to stop from going insane
She just doesn’t feel pretty anymore and she doesn’t know why
She just wants to give up and just leave this ugly, dark place where no one understands
She feels as if she must give up sooner rather than later at this point
It’s just too late for her
She’s can’t take it anymore
Her feelings turned out to be true
Wow, that’s a first
No one can help her anymore
She’s done with this shit, she just can’t take it
She finds her beautiful sharp razor
She starts to shed tears as she places the sharp object up to her beautiful scarred wrist
She’s so angry with herself that she starts to cut deeper and deeper, harder and harder
She bleeds and bleeds until there’s nothing left to pour out
She’s immediately happy and satisfied with herself
And with one last gasping breath, her sentence is sounded
“I am now. .free. .at. . .las. .”
She couldn’t even finish this
But how beautiful does she look?
How beautiful she looks in a puddle of her own fucking blood
Staining the new wood finish that was just redone this past April
As she lies there, she is finally free

October 2005

End of the Line

Why does she even try?
As you can see, again she’s in torture
Yet another guy has ditched her, and he doesn’t care
She really thought that they had something
She guesses that she was wrong, again
What else is new?
She can’t stand the hate anymore
“What’s wrong with me ?!” she asks herself
The answer? Everything
She can’t do anything right
She writes a love poem to her love
He loves it, but just minutes later, reveals to her to truth : it’s over
That’s right, her life, it’s over
She should just stop trying and just drop dead
It doesn’t matter, no one will notice, no one will care
He just has no idea what the hell he’s done
It’s just not fair, and no one cares, no one sees it
Their words don’t help her sadness
She gently walks to her room, shuts the door, and locks it
Welcome to her death chamber
She looks at herself in the mirror, she can’t help herself
She smashes it into a thousand pieces
The mirror represents her shattered heart
She picks up the sharpest shard that she can find
Pulls it up to her tiny wrist
End of the line
This is the end

May 2005